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I have written lots of things over the past years and wanted to preserve them in a more permanent way. This website is so that the various pieces can be accessed by anyone who is interested. I do hope they are helpful - this is my way of sharing the experience of a lifetime. I know everyone has their own stories - this simply is mine.
1) Sunshine and Showers Written over many years and prepared for possible publication in 2010. have now changed my mind and think it better to share it here (not least as it is highly unlikely that anyone would actually publish it). Each chapter can be downloaded separately.
Sunshine and Showers: a faith story
This account is the story of my attempts to follow the will of God for me from as long
as I can remember. But this ‘will’ has taken me to the most unexpected places. It is
the story of the gradual growing to a certain maturity of mind and spirit and how this
was accomplished. It records my searching for a way of life which reflected Gospel
values whilst living ‘normally’ in a city and working for my living.
So many ‘lives’ which are published are of people with extraordinary vocations, many
of which flourish in convents or monasteries or in far places. I see myself as fairly
typical among my friends, with similar background, education and tastes. But I have
been given many insights and also the time and opportunity to reflect and ponder on
these. For these reasons, I want to share my story with my friends and with other
‘ordinary’ Christians of all denominations or none in the hope that they might find it
A brief summary of the content of the book can be read in the Table of Contents, under
the chapter headings.
I hope it doesn’t duck any real issues. It is written in ordinary language: I have tried
to avoid spiritual jargon. I hope I have shown light on ‘dryness’, ‘loss of faith’ and
other common afflictions and shown that these could be aspects of psychological
development as we search for a truly integrated faith which brings into unity all aspects
of our complex human nature.
A Consultant Psychiatrist said he found it 'absolutely fascinating'; an old friend of 65
years said she found it 'profoundly helpful'; an Indonesian SVD priest who was studying
for his doctorate at Bristol University said he was convinced it should be shared as so
many would find it helpful. Which is why I am modestly trying to say that maybe this
story is something special and was given to me to be shared.
I shall not be the least offended if you don't want to read it.
SUNSHINE AND SHOWERS TABLE OF CONTENTS
Early years - childhood in a London suburb in aftermath of War - beginning of faith -
life in Anglican church - holidays in Wales
Teenage years - Confirmation - Church becomes Evangelical - mother develops MS -
out to work in East End of London - attend a high Anglican church - confusion of
lifestyles and confusion of mind - prayer goes inward - I go to Bristol
In Bristol - mental health problems not resolved - church affiliation still confused
- ask for instruction in RC Church - religious experiences - call to ecumenism
Parish life - implementing Vat II - Bristol University (theology) and Heythrop
- private vows - working in the parish as a Pastoral Assistant - experiment fails -
out of work - eventually start work with Bristol Council of Christian Churches
The 80’s - busy and fruitful years in ecumenism, local, regional and national -
setting up new ‘ecumenical instruments’ for England, Wales and Scotland -befriending
the ‘anawim’ - clouds begin to gather.
Health problems - death of parents - burn-out - prayer dries up - time to reassess -
learning to live without inspiration - Shoreline Books - beginning to write
90’s - giving up ecumenical work - Bristol Mediation - working as freelance news
gatherer and feature writer for local free paper - meeting people from all backgrounds
once more - comments on parish life - caring for Adrian
Moving house - problems with Adrian and with the past - breakdown - learning to live
- ‘The Year when Nothing Happened’ - ministry of encounter
I am consecrated by the bishop and become a Consecrated Woman in the Order of
Consecrated Virgins - finally feel whole, with outside life matching inside life -
appreciating parish, neighbourhood and family communities - ministry of encounter
more meaningful than ever